I have had an arranged marriage . Been married for 10 years . I have three kids . I never loved my husband , he wasn’t a good person before and abused me mentally . I was broken and hated him but kept living with him because I was scared to leave . We think very different. I cannot love him , I tried . Whenever he touches me I feel disgusted . I feel happy when he isn’t home . I am thinking of divorce … I don’t know what to do . How can i start having feelings for someone I used to hate , even though he started becoming a little better than before . I am stuck and I need an advice on what to do .