I am a questioning nonbeliever. I currently am still a Christian, but I have been reading some of the Quran and it makes more sense to me and seems like a more complete picture to the story. This has made me consider becoming a Muslim, but not until I have done some more studying and praying for discernment.
I have stopped praying “in Jesus name” because I now believe that I can speak to God directly. I love God and call Him my best friend.
My question is: is envisioning an angel in your mind’s eye shirk? I have a pretty vivid imagination and a very visual mind with a photographic memory. Sometimes when I pray, I imagining that my guardian angel is with me, and that he sometimes gives me words back from God. I imagine the angel smiling warmly at me with approval and it fills my heart with warmth. In fact I believe my guardian angel is my partner in this life, watching over me.
Is it shirk to see this angel in my mind when I pray? I do not associate him with God, because God is Indescribable.
From a sincere seeker,