I keep having nightmares and I feel god is ignoring me

I keep having nightmares and I feel god is ignoring meCategory: ReligionI keep having nightmares and I feel god is ignoring me
Ebenezer Shebioba asked 3 years ago

I am not Muslim and do not speak arabic. I have been having nightmares from an early age about satan, hell and demons. I have brought this issue up with 2 of my Muslims friend who sent me an audio recording of ” Al ruqyah Al shariah” to listen to while I sleep because I may have had a jinn inside me. Once I had a dream in which something happened and then a few days later it happened in real life . About a week ago when I would listen to ruqyah my stomach would hurt, I would get tired and I would get quite tired but recently I haven’t had any reactions to listening to it. I have a very bad problem with anger and have no way to deal with it and when I get angry I will say ” I seek refuge with Allah from satan” and continue to pray but to no response. It has gotten to the point where I would swear at and insult god out of frustration ( sometimes when praying). I am getting tired of praying and waiting for something to happen. I have doubted the existance of God and questioned his judgement many times. My faith is lowering and I fear I will go to hell when I die. Is it too late for redemption? What should I do?