Helpless

HelplessCategory: ReligionHelpless
Bashir asked 6 years ago

Salam. About 3 years ago I was diagnosed with medical condition which was genetic and I never thought I would get it. It runs through my moms side and none of my other family members have it. I am not gonna tell what it is because it’s kind of personal. Well rewind 3 years back. After I learned I had this my life changed and I started to pray 5 times a day. I stayed up to 3 o clock every day because I heard that at late times Allah (S.W.T) comes to the lowest clouds to accept duas. I donated a thousand dollars to zakat. I did everything. Before this I wasn’t the best Muslim. Well my condition got worse and worse and worse. Here I am after 3 years. I was a lost man looking to find any sort of hope and I found it through our lords messages. But my condition never got healed which made me hopeless. So many different thoughts have come in my mind. Like who am I, what is my religion. What have I been doing all a long. I am lost. I am slowly going away from the path of Islam and I need this to stop. I just don’t know what to do. 
Thank you and may Allah bless you