I have been in a haram relationship and committed zina for 3 years. He told his parent’s about me. A week before his parents were due to come around, he said he didnt want to be with a person like me because I am horrible to him. What do I do? He is ignoring my calls. I want to repent and follow the right path. Sometimes I think this is Allahs will, giving me a chance to escape what I felt trapped in for so long but part of me feels like I truly am a horrible person and deserve every punishment. I feel like 3 years of my life have gone to waste. What do I do??