Assalam aleikum. My question is simple but i need to give you a backstory to understand my situation. I grew up with an alcoholic father who used to beat up my mom in front of me. Due to the trama we have never gotten along, and i have said and done some things towards him that i regret. He uses very vulgar language to describe me. I was a rebellious kid and i never had a good relationship with my parents. Eventhough he has hurt me so much, i cant help but wonder what life would be with a father. He is in my life but we cant even sit in the same room together. How should i deal with this? I have tried making this relationship better but by Allah he refuses. Should i leave my home?